A Season of Loss...

Now, I know in life, there a lot of things to be thankful for...so many things...but right now, this season of thankfulness is also...
A Season of Loss...
a time of stripping away people and things I've done...
a time of change...
kind of like a caterpillar changing to a butterfly...
only right now, I'm in the cocoon...
just waiting.

Almost 5 months ago, my husband's only brother and sibling was killed in a tragic car accident.
Just about a month ago, I quit playing piano for church.
And last Thursday, I announced in Bible study (that I have lead for years) that I would be taking a break from leading...
taking a pause needed for my own heart....
broken in many places...even before that horrid event June 1st.

I have no idea what God has in mind for me...how does one go about "resting" anyway?  I'm not at all used to it...I'm always helping with something, serving in some way...so, God added yet another piece to the equation of this time of rest.  What one thing MAKES me sit still?  Being sick.  Yes, sickness... even this morning, I had to stay home from church because I have a low-grade fever.  Crazy!

But even in this crazy-time-I-never-would-have-chosen-for-myself, I know that...
God is good, and He will bring good out of this.
He is faithful, and He will carry me through.
He loves me, and He will heal my broken heart.
He is...and because He is, I don't have to worry, but just hold tight.

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Lord,
You know me...You know my heart...You know I've never been one to rest.  Show me how to be still.
Your daughter,
Jennie